May 2012
7 posts
almost...
it has been a while, but friends i am almost back.
almost.
my last class at pratt is on monday.
monday!
the past few weeks have been non-stop.
non-stop.
and the next few days are going to be the same.
but better.
and i can’t wait for the celebrating to begin.
tomorrow at around 6 in the pm, i will officially begin my week of revelry with the first of my visiting family members,...
April 2012
1 post
March 2012
12 posts
yep…
excuse my silence
yes, i am here.
yes, i had a great spring break
yes, we worked on francis and as usual, curtro did an amazing job.
yes, i will post pictures soon.
yes, i have three weeks until my thesis paper and project are finished.
yes, all i do these days is work.
yes, i eat gummy vitamins for dessert.
yes, i graduate in five weeks.
yes, i am tired but i love my work.
yes, i miss curtis.
yes, he is...
over and over and over.
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he speaks (maybe next time)
i have not been sleeping very much over the last few weeks. i guess since my kidney stone. yep, i passed a kidney stone. my collection of tiny body rocks now stands at two and i hoping it stays that way forever. there is a rumor floating around that only men get kidney stones. older men who eat large amounts of deli meat, smoke cigars and drink scotch. well, i am here to tell you my friends that...
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yes! just what i am needing today.
enjoy, but...
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February 2012
9 posts
2 tags
two entries
(february 2, 2012)
i made smoothies and he made tiny pancakes.
i added a few peaches to the mix but you could not really tell. watch out jamba juice, i might not be needing you anymore. it’s cold and snowy here in brooklyn and that is fitting.
i am two people. two whole people.
lots of days, i am happy and focused and excited about my life. i am loving all my teaching opportunities,...
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“take away love
and our earth
is a tomb.”
– happy valentimes day from robert browning & me.
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releif.
a little pool of sweat gathers in the small of my back and when i breath in and out, rise and fall, it spills out onto my dark red mat. it usually falls to the left. almost always to the left. i like the way if feels when it slides down my side. my left side. it feels like relief. or maybe release.
sometimes she will open the door and i can barely contain myself as i wait for the cold air to...
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a good sunday afternoon, thesis writing, wassail...
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trying
i have been trying to write about our recent story of infertility for the last two weeks and
i
just
can’t
do
it.
not yet.
nothing new to really report, but my feelings have taken on a new form and i am still marinating.
love and blessings
January 2012
18 posts
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what do you want from me?
yesterday i heard someone say:
if you follow jesus and his ways you may or may not be happy. you may or may not be wise. you may or may not be successful. you may or may not be content. but one thing he does promise is that you will learn to love and love well.
my heart asked two questions, because i am in a questioning season for sure. one: what do you learn to love? two: is that enough for...
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visible.
lately i have been seeing the same people over and over again on the G train. this may not sound like much but to me it’s always a little shocking. i sometimes have to fight the urge to say hi or go in for a hug, like we have known each other for years. but we don’t know each other at all.
i saw a girl get spit in the face, not once but twice, by a guy that was annoyed with her...
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a friend shared this song with me yesterday...
fantasy through truth
i think i mentioned that i got lots and lots of books for christmas. well, i did. in fact i got 21 books for christmas. some of them are for reading, some are for learning and the majority are for looking. looking and absorbing and awing.
one of the books that has me caught up is andrew wyeth’s collection of sketches and paintings called the helga pictures. wyeth is an american painter...
one-one-two-one-one
brooklyn, brooklyn, take me in…
is it possible to build a life here?
can this really be a home for i and love and you?
there is no, no way, of denying that no matter where life takes us,
the one-one-two-one-one
has secured a secure place in my heart. forever more. this might be my love song to you and i hope you hear my cry singing true and long. yes i am crushing hard.
i had a dream...
skunk puppies
he was headed to vegas to see a rock and roll band.
i can’t remember which one.
the word “jagermeister” was stretched long and tight across his chest.
you could tell it was his best rock and roll t-shirt.
he met a stripper that was 7 feet tall and flat on both sides.
you could tell it was his best stripper joke.
his forearms were short and his fingernails flat.
a perfect...
maid servant
we were the first ones to church. in fact, when we got there the hired talent was still warming up, singing scales and tinkering on the piano. it was 10:30 and the christmas eve service was not scheduled to start for another 30 minutes. we were all a little embarrassed and quickly buried our noses in either solitaire, twitter, instagram or npr. take your pick jesus.
i was not expecting much and i...
and a happy new year...
where to start…
where to start…
i am a sleepy ball of unfinished projects and blisters. my work seems more real in my head than it does on paper or on my computer screen. i think i am going to like teaching and that is a relief my friends. i got new shoes that make me feel (you fill in the blank). these days, my curtis has felt like a new crush and i love it. i miss lots and lots of...
a new song for a new year. enjoy!
December 2011
1 post
November 2011
2 posts
cussed.
miss flannery o’connor once said “once you have discredited his (God’s) goodness, you are done with him” (mystery and manners). i have wondered about this statement for the last few days and i believe that miss o’connor is correct.
i cussed God two nights ago more than i have ever cussed him before. my heart was so full of anger and disbelief that even i was...
